20 August 2007

Day Nine

Day Nine
04 August 2007

Today marks the one year point. Three hundred and sixty-five days ago, I looked back at Lauren as I walked across the little field of dying grass to get on the bus. Five hundred twenty five thousand and six hundred minutes since that plane ride that took me eleven thousand miles away from everything I know and love. Give me a minute to reflect…okay, back to work.
Our first project of the day is to drill a hole between the first and second floors. It’s decided that drilling down would be a much better idea that to drill up, so upstairs we go. It doesn’t smell as bed up here but the lighting is worse and there some kind morbid energy coming from the corners. I think I’ll stay in the light, thanks. The area between the floors consists of a layer of dirt sandwiched between two slabs of concrete. Should be a piece of cake for our two foot super bit coupled with the jackhammer drill. I would not want to be in the room below this thing!
The hole was made and the cables run. Now we have to setup the switches where all of these cables will plug in and connect to the routers… hmm… I think I may have lost some of you. Okay, a quick lesson in networking (those who already know can jump to the next paragraph.). In order for information to travel from your computer, over a network, and reach another computer, it has to have a place to go and a way to identify where it came from and where it’s going. These tasks are accomplished through a universal addressing system much like the system used by the postal service to deliver mail. On the envelope you specify certain information about the source and destination for your letter, right? Your computer does the same thing to every little piece of information it sends. The envelope is called a “packet” and it’s addressing information is read in layers. The return address contains all of the information unique to your computer, like your IP address (city and state) and MAC address (street address). The destination address contains the IP and MAC address of the computer your sending information to. The “switch” can read and understand MAC addresses so it’s like your local post office, where a “router” reads IP addresses making it more like an international postal station. That should do. If you want to know more…Google it! Or better yet, head over to http://www.howstuffworks.com and search for networking.
They served eggplant parmesan for lunch. That’s just weird to me. Eggplant parmesan in Iraq. Well, it was pretty good so I won’t complain, but damn. Weird, man. I also had a not so weird hot dog that had actually been grilled! I could only eat half the bun because the other half had solidified. That actually came in handy though when I needed something to cut my eggplant parmesan!
The rest of the afternoon is spent setting up the computers. It’s a pretty basic process of getting them logged in and setting them up for an MS Outlooks email account. Oh, and there’s that little thing about getting them out of the boxes! Of course there were issues like one of the keyboards being completely in English, another keyboard had the wrong kind of connector, and all but one of the printers can only take a 110 volt power source (Iraq uses 220 volts!). But we did the best we could.
After a halfway decent Salisbury steak and some mashed potatoes, I went to take some pictures of our progress for the day. It’s actually impressive for just a few hours of work. There’s still work to be done tonight though. We have to change out a part on their satellite dish to give them faster internet.
The dish is on the roof, of course, and once again I find myself and the people around me exploring new levels of stupid. I’m temporarily distracted from the fact that I am on a roof top in clear view of many, many other rooftops around the city by some unexpected beauty. The sun is setting behind Ba Qubah; painting the city with intense color from fire orange to crimson to deep blood red. The statue fixed to the domed roof a few blocks away seems to have a glowing halo radiating, hypnotic. I feel like some kind of awkward gargoyle perched on this rooftop. Unable to move in the light of a living, sun blessed city. When the glow fades and I am released from my temporary paralysis, I quickly remember that I am shoulder deep in stupid and need this to get over with as quickly as possible.
After an hour of tinkering with the equipment and chatting with a couple of very energetic young jundee, the job is finished. Or at least half finished. There is still the process of calling the satellite controllers and running some tests to make sure everything will work properly when we plug a bunch of computers into it. But hey, it’s just a phone call. How long could it take?
At 2300 we make our way back to our building. Bitching the whole time about how much the satellite phone we were using sucks and how we could have been done two hours ago if it hadn’t dropped signal so often. “It’s only a thousand bucks. I could just get another one if I end up throwing this one at the wall.”, says the contractor poet. I wish I could say the same thing. I need a pick-me-up, and I know just the thing.
A call to my wonderful wife sends me into orbit. The earth looks so peaceful from way up here. There are no troubles or worries. No drama or petty squabbles. No hate or war. Nothing wrong at all. Just me and my squirrel. Until the imminent *click* brings me back to the war torn, bloody streets of Iraq.
It’s 0030 now and I need to get some rest before…

19 August 2007

Day Eight

Day Eight
03 August 2007

Today should be the day the equipment comes in, but by 0930 it’s nowhere in sight. I don’t think I can handle another day like yesterday. *sigh* I can’t keep writing about days like these! You know, I had some exciting times back in training. Like the ruck marches Paul and I went on, or the time I got waaaaayyyy too drunk and missed bed check, or how I went temporarily awol to get married, or those awesome drives from Ft. Benning to Tampa, or that crazy Christmas when the spider shit in my leg and I didn’t tell anybody about it until after the holidays (which happened to be like three days before my *second* wedding) while my leg was leaking some strange yellow ooze and I could barely walk…You know, maybe we don’t have to go into that last one, but there are plenty of other stories I’ll start going into on these down days.

But after a lunch of rice & beef, a very over-fried corndog and some mashed potatoes, I find that this is not one of those days!

It’s 1300 and a voice comes crackling over the radio saying that there’s a big truck full of electronics at the gate and our contractor (the contractor poet) needs to get out there to verify that it is in fact supposed to be there and is not a giant eighteen wheeled explosive device. Hey, that’s a real concern out here. So out we go to the road leading out to the perimeter gate. As I’m looking around at all the interesting architecture of the buildings surrounding us I hear the guy walking next to me say, “Tanner, what the fuck are we doing?” “We’re going out to the gate to…” “No no, I mean, look around. See the perimeter right there? And the civilian buildings right on the other side? Yeah, now look down. What are we wearing?” “Wow. This is not a smart idea” If you haven’t guessed yet, we were walking down a street in downtown Ba Qubah with no hooah gear. No IBA, no Kevlar, let alone the gloves, knee pads, etc, that are usually required for a patrol. He says, “This is the dumbest thing I’ve ever done…in country. And look at that guy!” He points at the soldier walking a little way ahead of us, “He’s just strolling along with his coffee mug! Word? A coffee cup?” Yeah, it was an officer.

As we’re crouched down behind a cement barrier, the big voice comes over the loudspeaker system. You see, there are five prayer times throughout the day and during these times a prayer is chanted over these huge speakers placed all over the city. And it’s a great opportunity for the insurgency to stir up some unrest by chanting anti-American phrases. This is confirmed by the interpreter who is there with us who translates the big voice for us as it goes along, “Kill the Americans. Destroy the infidels. You know, stuff like that” “Greeeeat.” So lets make sure we’re all on the same page. We’re now in the street at the perimeter gate of a coalition force post, wearing no protective gear, while the entire city hears chants about bringing down the “white devil”. Oh and there’s an officer out here with a coffee cup.

While I was out there, I did get to see the other side of the building we live in and it looks really nice. So that’s kinda cool. Doesn’t make up for the incredible levels of stupidity that we’ve created, but still. Finally the truck is deemed non-explosive and is allowed to come in. Amazingly, the driver didn’t hit anything while maneuvering the beast through the cramped little streets and the tiny parking lot.

This thing is friggin packed with mountains of boxes, crates of construction equipment, and who knows what else. I know it took all of us two hours to unload it all and pack the conference room with towers of cardboard that stretched halfway across the room!

The jundee helped a little but they had no idea that it was their job to inventory it all. We broke contact and only left two guys back with them to force them into the task. On our way out, the G6 tried to split but he was caught by the General who told him off (at least that’s what it sounded like. It’s impossible to read emotions from someone speaking Arabic. They ALWAYS sound angry!). The G6 was practically crying in a pitiful whine, “Nooo, sadee, noooooo…” (sadee is Arabic for sir and is pronounced “say-dee”).

I decide it’s time to find some productive activities to occupy my sporadic downtimes that pop up during the day. Kinda like right now. So I hit up the Army distance learning site and start the Rosetta Stone Arabic Language courses. We have access to around thirty language training suites from Rosetta Stone and it’s all free, so what the hell, right?

By dinner time I’ve gone over some introductory stuff like numbers and direction and am struggling with the style (total immersion) used by the software. The only thing in English are the navigation buttons and the idea is to figure out what the picture is by the spoken clues and repetition. This is going to take some time, and some brain food.

The meatloaf is surprisingly good and the potatoes are tasty for a change! The shrimp on the other hand…well. For one thing, I haven’t seen too many shrimp boats out here, so I have to wonder how far away they came from. And the other thing is that I always make the mistake of looking under the breading and always find that most of them have not been de-veined. Eww.
I pick back up on the language training, and stick with the basic stuff until around 1830 when it’s finally time to start working again. The building next door has the usual smell of stale smoke with a hint of urine, but the energy has become something more…active. The buzz of change is in the air.

The six long, wooden desks in the JOC (Joint Operations Center) have internal wiring. The problem is that the current wiring is, for lack of a better word, fucked. So our first project is gutting them and installing our own lines. The process is pretty simple. First we pop off the old adapters mounted to the desk:


Then we make sure the current lines are disconnected:


Then one of us grabs the cables poking out of the side and rips it out along with anything that gets in the way:
(there was wadded up paper, some little plastic pieces, and some kind of wiring connection…wait, I think that was supposed to be in there. Oops.)
Finally we just run the new lines through the hole in the side and wire them up to the old adapters:

Too easy.
By 2100 we have three desks wired up and have to wait to get to the other three because they are still in use. That’s okay with me. I’m kinda sore from all the box moving earlier, anyway. So I poke around the internet for a while trying to find something to do and end up finding another social networking site called “Zooped” that is very much like MySpace. The only differences are the names and the millions of people that use MySpace versus the like dozen that use Zooped. Whatever, of course I signed up for an account, but I’ll probably never use it.

It’s closing in on 0030 when I get to bed looking forward to…

Day Seven

…Day Seven
02 August 2007

Ugh. It’s 0900 and already and I get the feeling that this is going to be another slow day. So when I get next door and find that, though three new lines have been done, there is nothing to do until we get that equipment (which includes a two foot drill bit!).
As if having nothing to do wasn’t bad enough, lunch came and made the day worse. A couple meat-like patties formed in the shape of ribs (yeah, kinda like the McRib) on stale bread, an over fried corndog, and a carrot, pea, and red stuff mixture that was one step from being baby food consistency. I guess I’m just stubborn or maybe depressed ‘cause if a meal like that doesn’t get my spirits up, nothin’ will. Ah well, at least there’s air conditioning and lights…oh wait, the power’s out. *sigh*
Since there won’t be any more progress today, I go back early to take some pictures of the three lines that did get run this morning. And…great. Now I’ve got nothing to do again. Time for the old fall back.
This time I decide to watch a Jackie movie that I have been wanting to see again for a long time now, The Tuxedo. Not many people thought it was too good, but I think it’s a great movie. I love that he never gets the girl.
Dinner is better. I mean, there’s power this time, so right off the bat it’s got lunch beat hands down. The barbeque beef brisket isn’t as shoe-leather-tough as it usually is and the broccoli is green and tasty. In stark contrast to the bright, crisp broccoli, the potatoes are pale, limp, and completely and utterly tasteless. This is the first time I’ve ever had to rely completely on my sense of “feel” to be sure I was eating something. I swear if my tongue was numb right now, I would have no idea there was food in my mouth. I did manage to grab some cookies for snacking later (this is another movie night, after all), and the cookies that KBR gets are awesome! Not as good as Mom’s or Grandma’s, but they’re about as close as it gets. If you wrap them up in plastic wrap and let them hang out in a cargo pocket for half a day or so, they fuse together and become one huge super-cookie! And the chocolate chip ones are al dente, so they have that half-cookie-half-cookie-dough thing going on. I think it’s time for a cookie break. Be right back.
For the evening’s movie, I’m going for Evan Almighty. And I am pleasantly surprised with both the quality of the video and the movie itself. I thought it would be full of cheap humor and slapstick, but it was kept to a minimum. The message I got from it was something like: sometimes opportunities present themselves in unconventional ways. I like that idea for it’s outside-the-boxyness. Speaking of unconventional ways of thinking, it’s a good time to give my Squirrel a call!
Ah the sweet medicinal poison of love! It carries my heart across the globe and sends me hers. With every breath, every word, every syllable, my love grows deeper. With every joke, every laugh, every silly pun, I live stronger. Every tear, every sigh, every longing silence, my world slows. And finally it stops all together as we say that horrible “good-bye”.
It’s about time I added another video to the Zertinon Studios MySpace page so I prepare the footage I got during the two days my small kill team (sniper) class spent on the range and start the upload. This internet connection is horrendously slow so I’ve got some time to kill. You guessed it…movie time!
Holy my goodness! If you haven’t seen Blades of Glory yet, find a way! This is seriously the funniest movie I’ve seen in a really long time. There are far too many quotes to start listing (don’t worry, I won’t ask you for your favorite), and it definitely ranks right up there with Zoolander and Grandma‘s Boy! I know I’m going to watch this over and over again (just like Howard the Duck!).
The upload fails and it’s already 0200. *yawn* Guess I’ll try to get some shut eye before…

15 August 2007

Day Six

…Day Six
01 August 2007

We're woken up at 0800 to the news that our secure comms are down. No one bothered to let us know until then because, "We just thought it was down for a while." Seriously? Come on people. Okay well, we troubleshoot and with some help from my team back at Spiecher, we have it back up and running by 0830.
My team chief will be happy to know that immediately after resolving the issue, I went online and started researching the equipment that was giving us the problem. I have been programmed to do this, and can't really think of anything else until it gets done. It's not such a bad thing really; it just kinda feels robotic, but not quite puppet level, ya know? Research continues until a lunch that was actually pretty good.
The entrée was a well seasoned mix of chicken and bell peppers. The chicken was boiled, I think, but the bay leaf and seasoning mix did the trick. The peppers were of every color that peppers can be and roasted to an almost perfect tenderness. The Iraqis can cook veggies, I'll vouch for that! Of course I had a backup plan of one of those standard pepperoni pizzas in case the chicken didn't work. Oh, and an apple that seemed to be confused as to whether it should be a crisp, tart green apple, or a soft, sweet yellow. The result was less than great, but not bad either. After this, we head next door to check progress.
And find there is nothing for us to do. The contractor and his techs are doing what they can without the equipment and we just sit around and watch them do their thing. Eventually we do the usual check up on the guards and go back to our building. I mean, come on, if you're gonna sit around doing nothing, wouldn't you rather do it at home (or the closest thing you have to it)? Yeah, I thought so.
I started killing time by checking out some of the blog sites out there, and found one that seems decent (and free!) called, Blogger. I set up an account there and put up the first few days to get the feel of it. It actually allows pictures to be uploaded directly so that's a big plus too. Check it out at http://tannerism.blogspot.com (that is if you're not reading this on that page already) if you want to see the pics that go along with the story. Well it gets boring somewhat quickly and I fallback to one of my all time favorite time wasters: movie watching.
I pop in the Jackie Chan disk and settle in for the wild wild fun of "Shanghai Noon". I don't know why but this movie makes me laugh every time! "Uno mas?" HAHA. It kills me. When he jumps onto his drunken horse backwards and grabs it's tail, "Where's it's head?". Classic.
An uneventful dinner leads to another uneventful progress check. A couple lines need to be run but nothing else can happen until the shipment comes. That's all there is to it. So it looks like I've got some more down time. The upside is it's about time to give my wife a call.
The phones are finicky here but eventually I get through, and I'm plunged back into my happy place at the sleepy, "Hello?" from the other end. Half way around the world and that's all it takes to make me feel the warmth of home. Roughly 11,000 miles away and all she has to do is say hello and I melt as if I were next to her. We talk about how our days have been going and how things are at the house. I wish I could tell her how much I love and miss her, but this feeble language just doesn't have the words. I'd spell it in stars if I could but that wouldn't even be enough. And with the click of the handset to the receiver, I'm back on earth. *sigh*
More time to kill now. It's movie time again, and it only makes sense to watch "Shanghai Knights". It's not as funny as it's predecessor, but it's still good. I can only take so much of Owen Wilson's static style, though. He was better in "Zoolander". Oh man, I wish I had that here! Now there's a comedy classic right there! I, like so many others, refused to watch that movie just on principle, but when I was peer pressured into it, it became one of my favorites right away. There are too many good quotes from it to get into here. Do me a favor though, and post your favorite Zoolander quote as a comment. Thanks.
Sometime after 0200 the sandman comes and sends me off to…

Day Five

…Day Five
31 July 2007

I wake up at 0900 and try to stretch through the nasty pain in my back. This hard foam mattress is going to take some getting used to. It's not unbearable or anything but damn it's annoying.
We pick up the techs and head next door to link up with the construction guys who will be setting all the conduit for our new cables. We are met by a small team of workers, and when I say a small team I mean small in stature not numbers. Seriously, it was like being surrounded by blue overall clad umpa lumpas with power tools. Creepy, man. We lead them around from room to room showing them how our lines will be running and where we need the conduit to run.
Now it's time for us to get back to work. The drill is readied and the ladder is acquired for this morning's chaos. Will the walls hold up to the onslaught brought on by the jack hammering super drill?
The question is quickly answered as a shower of plaster and paint chips fly from the wall. Hmm, well, it's still standing! Keep going! As we drill through the general's office there is a loud thunk on the ceiling tiles right above my head. "Whoa! Stop there!" I yell out. And sure enough, when we removed the tile we found that a half drilled brick had been dislodged and hammered right out of the cement! It should be our last drilling session anyway.
Lunch is interesting. I've never had chili-mac made with bbq pulled pork instead of seasoned beef. It was good and all, but kinda weird, too. Along side it is the all too familiar corn and bean mix. Yeah, anyway. Refueled, we get going on the cabling. It's not real difficult, just kinda time consuming. During the process, we meet quite a cast of characters.
There's the PJOC director that has a questionable air about him. Like a friggin cult leader, actually. Then there are the jundee (enlisted soldiers) that are a mixed bag of rowdy, depressed, and hyper. Like the guy who keeps telling me that the sergeant I'm with is an "areel" (Arabic for pussy (literal translation: "big hole"!)). This same guy insists on giving me an Arabic name and, since neither my first or last names translate properly, he settles on Hieder (pronounced hi-der), which is cool with me. Then there are the guards that are just bored. And why wouldn't they be? They just sit in folding chairs outside the offices of officers. That's it. Just sit all damn day. I think that's why they always have the barrels of their AKs pointing up when we come through, just so we can tell them to point the barrels down and they can pretend to not understand us. That's the highlight of their day. Yeah, I'd be bored too!
It's getting late, so we get our shit together and head for the door when all of a sudden, a guy comes out of the JOC and, through some broken English, tells us that the phones are not working. Alright. We take a look and find that it's only one phone and it's bugging out because they've got it hooked up all crazy. It rings but when it's answered it continues to ring! It was pretty funny to watch the guy try to answer the phone in between rings. After untangling the mess we find that it's connector is loose, too. Okay. We put a new end on it and then find out that the problem is actually the phone's port itself being a bit too big for the connector! Shove some friggin paper or something in there, we're hungry, damnit!
After a dinner of what may or may not be General Tso's chicken and spackle (possibly mashed potatoes), we're tasked to go explain what's gonna happen once the equipment gets here to the G6. Yeah the same guy we tried conversing with yesterday. He still doesn't get it and it comes down to the OIC coming in and giving an inspiring performance. "I don't wanna hear it!" "I know it's not what you 'want', and I don't care." "This is what you're getting." "Don't look a gift horse in the mouth." With that last one, he actually made the interpreter attempt to translate that exact phrase (like, literal translation) to this guy! It was amazing. I guess he finally just accepted the fact that he wasn't going to have a say in this and he gave us the smile, nod, and shukran this time! I get the feeling that there will be a lot of this going on throughout the whole project.
By now it's pretty late, but it's okay. I have to stay up to do some commo stuff tonight anyway.
Sleep comes sometime after 0300 and way too soon it's…

05 August 2007

Day Four

…Day Four
30 July 2007
I wake up at 0900 and look around the room. It’s just me and the contractor that I can see, and he’s typing away at his computer. So I lie back down and in the blink of an eye it’s 1000. We gotta get going.
The contractor, his two techs, and I head next door to start our mission. The first step seems simple enough. Get with the G6 commander and find out what he thinks about where this equipment should go. The techs are both Iraqi so they can act as our interpreters and we have the floor plan printed out showing where we think everything should go. Too easy, right?
Yeah, well, I’ll do my best to explain this. We link up with the G6 and he rambles on about how he needs to be able to do this and those people don’t need that and he should have these and nobody but he should have those and on and on. To simplify matters, we gave him a smile, a nod, and a “shukran” (pronounced “shoo-cron” and is Arabic for “Thank you”), and decided to stick with what we had on the paper already.
We break for lunch before heading back to start the real work. We need to drill a few holes through the walls and run some cables through the ceiling, as well as go through all the rooms to get a feel for how the equipment will be layed out.
Our first task was to find a ladder. Now, gentle reader, I know what you must be thinking, “Why would a simple task such as this merit it’s own paragraph?” Well, friends, I will tell you now that one of the most important lessons I have learned in this year is that nothing, and I mean NOTHING, is as easy as it should be in Iraq! Period. (Yes I know I ended the sentence with an exclamation point and not, in fact a period. Just go with it!) Anyway, we need a ladder in order to get into the ceiling tiles and run the cables. There is a construction crew here and we know they have a ladder somewhere but it is not immediately apparent that they know they have a ladder somewhere! What they do have is a crudely constructed scaffold like object nailed together with pieces of scrap wood. With just a nudge of my foot it collapses on one side. “I’m not getting on that thing.”, I tell the contractor. A carpenter from the construction crew hurries over with a bucket of nails and a hammer, and has the scaffold back together within the minute. He even managed to add a couple pieces of wood for “stability” that seem to be doing their job (I kicked it again to make sure, hehe). “I’m still not getting on this thing.”, I say as we carry it inside. We set it down in front of the room that will one day be the server room and realize that the ceiling is still too high for us to be able to run the cables. *sigh* But oho!, what is this? Right outside the window at the end of the hall I spot the real ladder and all we have to do is wait for them to finish painting that spot on the wall and we can “acquire” it. While we wait for that, I decide it’s time to try something that I’ve been putting off for the past year.
We don’t get a steady supply of highly caffeinated sugar energy drinks out here like red bull, adrenaline rush, monster, etc. They do make an appearance at the px once in a while but they sell out really fast. “No energy drinks?? But, Aaron, how do you all get through the days?!“ The answer: “Rip it“. These little eight ounce cans with the bucking bronco logo come in three types: the orange colored cans are obviously orange flavored, the red cans are fruit punch, and the silver and blue cans are sugar free with no flavoring. The little bastards are like crack for a lot of the soldiers out here. I’ve seen the withdrawal symptoms and it’s not a pretty sight. It was for that very reason I have avoided them for so long. Things have changed now, though, and the time is right. I drink my first Rip it. It’s orange. It’s bubbly. It’s delicious! The lights get brighter and my capillaries are tingling. Yeah, I can feel them. Weird, but…cool. Shit, I’m hooked already.
So we begin the room search with the server room where the “stack” is (the stack is the term for the centralized location of the communication equipment e.g. modems, routers, etc usually stacked on top of one another (hence the name)). And this is what we see:


Yeah, it’s what we call a “cluster fuck”. It looks like a rat’s nest made outta cat 5 cables. Just ridiculous! They’ve all been stepped on, tripped over, and generally abused to the point where we know that we’re gonna have to replace every damn cable there and figure out a way to keep this from happening again.
While we scheme and plan, we still must work. We get started by running a few lines from the server room to the other side of the building and drilling a few of the holes we’ll need. We quickly discover that this particular drill has a tendency to destroy the plaster as it bursts through the other side. This particular drill has a jack hammer feature that pounds away at whatever it’s drilling (whoa now! Heads out of the gutter people! Ahem, where was I?) Luckily, one of the rooms already had an access point where the air conditioner cables came into the room. This worked out okay until we tried to pull the new cables through the plastic housing of the A/C causing all the water stored in the unit to be dumped out right onto a guys sleeping mat (yeah, the Iraqis sleep in their offices)! We were able to plug it up eventually and had to call the construction guys over to fix it completely, but hey!, we got those damn cables in place!
It’s 1600 and we’ve drilled three holes, run six cables, and broken one air conditioner. We called it a day and took off. Without anything to really do I went ahead and used my down time to check out those cheap ass DVDs I’d picked up in Warhorse.
The copy of Harry Potter 5 was pretty bad with chunks of movie missing, but the Jackie Chan movies seem to be in good shape and it turns out the disc is an 8 in 1 instead of a 7 in 1. Pretty nice surprise. I watched Around the World in 80 Days and had a few good chuckles. I like Jackie’s sense of humor, especially when it comes to his action scenes.
Sleep came after the series of booms coming from somewhere further into the city. Our guards must have seen something though because the building shook with the bangs from the large caliber rifles on the roof. And just like that it’s…

Day Three

…Day Three
29 July 2007

The guy who was supposed to wake me up failed to do so, which resulted in a rude awakening at 0630. Luckily, I had pre-packed everything but my pillow and poncho liner (makes a great sheet!) so the mountains were loaded by 0640 and the search for the convoy departure point begins.
The directions are straight forward enough. It’s the roads we have trouble with. They don’t seem to match up with the directions very well at all. The post is so small, however, that by just after 0700 I was staging my bags and settling in for a long wait.
“Wastin’ away again on FOB Warhorse.
Sittin’ on my packed duffel bag.
Some people say that Mister Bush is to blame,
But I know, it’s al queda’s fault!”
This is the little tune running almost constantly through my head during that first hour. I know some of you self proclaimed political analysts might disagree with that last line, but I don’t give a damn. I’d be happy to discuss the matter further, so give me a call when you get here and we can chat in the Dfac. Let’s move on.
The mountains are split between two vehicles with plenty of cargo space and all the hooah gear (body armor, helmet, etc.) goes on. After a year of being a “fobbit”, I’m finally leaving the wire. Riding through the civilian streets of a war torn country. Where do I look? What should I feel? This is all new. The two hundred pound, foot thick, armored door closes surprisingly gently. The metallic clicks and scrapes confirm the combat locking system is engaged. The dust clouds rise with our departure. This is all new.
Like the first time on a roller coaster. Come on, you remember. It seemed like such a good idea from the ground. The seats are solid. The belts secure. The track is clean and shiny. Then the coaster is moving forward with a crazy clicking noise that almost sounds like an evil laugh. “HAHAHA Gotcha now, sucker!” Then that nice firm ground is getting further away. The clicks continue to taunt as you start to think these seats are kinda loose, the belts are frayed, the track is rusty and dirty from the rain. And all the time that big chain pulling you higher and higher is looking weaker and weaker. You know for certain that all of those other people who rode this death trap before you were lucky to make it alive, and your luck has run out. It’ll derail, or get stuck upside down, or just fall apart; I mean just look at all those rusty bolts! As the last car gets pushed over the peak, a rush of incredible acceleration announces your imminent death. Then you’re gliding. “Am I an angel? Did I die? Why am I flying?” The world snaps back into perception as you clear that first loop that had briefly taken you from gravity’s firm grip. As you look down the track and see the series of twists, turns, and loops that are in your immediate future, that old feeling comes back. This was a good idea. I wonder how the rest of this ride is going to feel. The doors are combat locked. The armor secure. The track, well, it’s going by too fast to see now. But it’s there and will be there, and so will I. No matter how it tries to scare me away.
At first there isn’t much to see. A lot of fencing topped with razor wire. Signs promising death to those who wander too near. The roads are like any other, except maybe with a few more potholes. Some patches of high weeds demand attention with a shock of vivid green against the bland tan background as we approach an intersection.
This area is full of people walking with what appears to be everything they own on big carts drawn by donkeys. Some carts were piled high with colorful, but dusty, carpets. Some had teetering towers of boxes with random household objects jutting out in random places (a bulb-less lamp here, a torn umbrella there.) There were those that looked like they had just raided a junkyard full of half assembled appliances, over used electronics, and just plain broken furniture. And then there were those that were almost empty, save for a small bag of what looked like sun dried vegetables and old, dented, label-less cans. Some of those carts weren’t even pulled by donkeys. Instead, they were powered by groups of children taking turns on the handles and trying to trip one another for a laugh.
There are buildings here and there along the road. I call them buildings because I know people live there. Otherwise I would say there were large piles of broken stones and rubble here and there along the road. None of them are completely protected from the elements and all of them housing human life. These are the victims. These are the ones for whom life is a daily experience in survival. Here they are. Not on a television screen. Not in newsprint. No, here they are. And here’s the thing that really got to me about these people: they were cheering us on. Big toothless smiles, gnarled fists pumping the air, hearty clapping; it was all there. Yes, there were some jeers, too, and that is completely understandable (people need to point blame somewhere, after all). But those were greatly outnumbered by our fans! I mean, here they are living everyday in a way that would make either you or I cry for our mothers, propaganda pumping through their streets claiming that the pain they feel is the American’s fault, family dying before their eyes, witnessing horrors beyond our imaginations, and still they have the presence of mind, the trust in right and wrong, the fucking balls to know that we are there to help. These are people to respect and they deserve to be freed from this horror. I’ll end this tangent here, but I cannot stress enough that the Iraqi people are incredible and “worth” just as much as any American.
Further along, the road opens up and there are more and more vehicles lined up. Small cars with mismatched, faded paint and vans packed with people. There are some work trucks, too, with faded advertisements spray painted on the sides, perhaps it was graffiti. All of these are lined up and not really moving. There are some bicyclists pedaling by them on bikes with rusted chains and mismatched wheel sizes. A couple miles down the road I discover the back up is caused by not one but a series of road blocks manned by Iraqi Army (IA) forces. It’s good to see that they’re at least taking care of their own streets.
Down the road are the crumbling remains of two neighboring buildings that grabbed my attention. The first is a dilapidated old warehouse looking building with big rusty pipes poking from random places of the wall and wrapping around to the back. The giant iron gate at the front says that this is the home of Iraq’s Ministry of Transportation. The driveway is full of those donkey carts. I enjoy a good chuckle about that. Right next door to the MoT is a probably-should-be-but-probably-isn’t condemned factory lookin building with giant, gray silos looming in the background. There are big trucks parked in this driveway and an air of activity coming from the plant. The gate of this one is emblazoned with the very familiar symbol representing the drink for the new generation. Yup, it’s a Pepsi plant.
As we get closer to the city, I’m surprised by the sight of a humongous palm grove stretching out beyond the horizon. There is a mansion of a house deep within and it’s definitely not a crumbling pile of rubble. On the contrary, it looks extremely well maintained. All along the outer line of trees there are shacks set at even distances apart. The wood shacks are crudely camouflaged, but suppose they would be difficult to see if you weren’t looking for them. I could this be the place I’m going? Is that the government center?
No, of course not. The g.c. (as it’s called) is in the middle of the city. Surrounded by buildings, not palm trees. Ah yes, and here’s the city now. Gargantuan gates lie forever open next to the hasty guard posts of plywood and sandbags.
Deeper and deeper into the city we penetrate. No building has escaped partial destruction. Bullet holes and scorch marks are the only decorations at first. A little later there are vibrant, colorful signs above the war scarred shops that line these city streets. They must have been bustling at some point in the past, packed with bargain hunters looking to score a deal and kids hoping to score some sweets. But now the only thing on sale is bittersweet hope, and all that’s left to score is a bottle of clean water. Finally, when I feel like I can’t take much more of this incredible onslaught of truth and perspective, we are winding away from the main roads and slowing to a stop out side of some familiarly styled fencing and razor wire.
Wow this place is small! When they told me it was just a big building they friggin meant it! In fact, it’s not even the whole building! We only access about one third of the entire government center! Now, for OPSEC reasons, I’m not going to go into the layout, but I can tell you that we have a small but effective Dfac, a well equipped gym, and a little room with three DSN phones that work every once in a while. We share our rooms with as many people as there are beds (and some of them, like mine, have multiple bunk beds.)








The unpacked rucksack mountain doesn’t look very formidable as it rests atop my wall locker. Someday it will be full and deadly again. *shudder*

After moving the mountains up the steep, crumbling steps to the room, it’s time for lunch. Something that I think was intended to be chicken strips, but had gotten fried a few extra times, found it’s way under a slice of cheese and a slathering of barbeque sauce to become my first ever meal in Ba Qubah. And wouldn’t ya know it, they’ve got some diet Pepsis! Oh yeah! Between the unnecessarily loud crunching bites of chicken I can hear myself think, “I am going to like this place.”

After lunch, the adventure continues. Right next door to our building is the Iraqi Police and Iraqi Army building that is being rebuilt. I will be working over there from time to time so we go for a quick tour to get the lay of the land. I’m told that every time we go through the gate our weapon should be hot (magazine locked in and the first round in the chamber). “So should I grab my IBA?” “Nah, just lock and load.” “Gangsta.”

It’s a lot nicer than what I had expected. Of course, it has come a long way in a short period of time so it had only recently become this way. I meet a dozen or so IP staff and a couple of jundee (pronounced “june-dee” and is Arabic for junior enlisted soldier) that seem very energetic, even downright rowdy. I’m quickly briefed that part of our mission here is to remind these guys that they are professionals and to help them act like it. Basically be a Drill Sergeant for them. This is sounding like more and more fun every damn minute!

The convoy that’s taking the guy that I’m replacing should be leaving any minute. I hang out and bullshit with him while he waits. We talk about the daily routine for a while. Some dumb shit for a while. Just random things for a while. As all of these “a while’s” pass by, there is no indication that this convoy is leaving anytime soon. It’s already two hours later than it was supposed to be and it’s way too hot to be sittin around out here. “Have a good trip. Peace.” Of course, as soon as I left him alone out there the convoy started loading up and left a few minutes later! Ain’t that how it always goes?

At 1830 I’m lying on my bed trying to wind down from this physically and emotionally exhausting day, when the sounds of rapid small arms fire bursts to life right outside. There is no ECP test fire range here. That means that every bang, boom, and blast is one person trying to kill another person. Well, most of the time. This time I think it was celebratory fire because of Iraq winning that big soccer game. Maybe that’s just what I hope it was, but I’m pretty sure.
Later on, our OIC comes in to give up a brief. Over the next week or so, we’re gonna be expanding the information network that the Iraqis have in place. We’ve got new computers and phones coming and we’ll need to run new cables through all of the buildings. We need to draw up a network diagram showing everyone they talk to and how they talk to them. And we need an interface between civilian contractors and military personnel. Oh this is going to be a blast!

Sooner or later (and I’m guessing later) I was able to get to sleep before…

Day Two

…Day Two
28 July 2007

Sorry, Sweetheart. I checked my watch at 0107 and with what seemed like the blink of an eye it was 0430. Then 0530. 0700. 0900. And finally, 1130. Too sore to move, I just exist again. My chatty cot isn’t even up for anything as I stare at the towel suspended from the tent’s frame.
But now it’s 1530 and I’m going crazy. I’m going to the JNN site. I know it’s late, but I have to make the call. I was too pampered at Spiecher with it’s commercial phones and stable internet. I can’t go this long without your voice! Talk to you soon, Sweetness!
Ah your voice has exceptional healing powers! From the first word, I feel as though I am suddenly being submerged in an exotic bath that takes all my fatigue, all of my soreness away. I feel refreshed as I remember the smell of your skin. I am invigorated by the memories of your loving embrace. I want to laugh and cry, live and die, all at the same time. With no sense of time, space, or, for that matter, vocabulary, I sit with the phone against my head, grinning like an idiot. Needless to say, our conversation is brief. I hope there will be a chance for a longer one soon.
At dinner I am able to keep enough wits about me to put a light coat of butter and a drizzle of honey on my think slice of fresh baked, oaty heaven. Although, that’s all I can remember eating. I know there was more to that meal, but none of it matters.
After dinner I exist for a while and try to get some sleep, but it just ain’t happenin’. It is now 2300. I’ve gotta be up and moving in less than seven hours. Better make the best of it. Chow opens up at 2330 so I hit that up and had another fantastic bread, butter, and honey experience. Again, that’s all that matters.
Now it’s time to try for that good call to the Squirrel. The background noise is intense once again, but it all fades away when my baby’s voice rings through that phone. Like a choir of angels singing just for me; bringing peace and joy to every part of my being. A hot chill spreads through my veins. A violent calm overtakes my nerves. My toes tap. Fingers twitch. Heart soars, and then breaks with the fall of the handset back into it’s cradle. Until next time, my love.
Finally sleep comes at around 0200 and before I know it…

01 August 2007

Day One

…Day One
27 July 2007

It’s 0830 and the sergeant is kicking at my cot, “Tanner. Rise and shine, sunshine.” “What??” “I said, rise and shine sunshine.” “Oh. Er…okay” It’s surprisingly cold in the tent as I rustle a fresh uniform from Mt. Ruck. I find myself looking forward to the heat of the day!

I get over to the JNN site about 0930 with a light coat of sweat already weighing down my uniform. Both suns have risen already, and I find myself looking forward to the chill of the tent! (That didn’t take very long, did it?)

The convoy to the government center will leave at 1100 hrs this morning. “Sweet! So, can I get the truck to pick up my bags?” “HAHA! Better make a couple trips!” “Shit.”

Back at the tent, I quietly repack my mountains and prepare for a slow, laborious transport. First up: Mt. Ruck! Like a taller, sweatier, and much better looking Quasimodo, I hunch, gimp, and grunt my way across the dust fields. I do my best to avoid putting too much pressure on the bruises left by last night’s adventure, but alas, there is no escaping the patchwork of black and blue (don’t worry, it’ll heal soon!). By the time my shoulders go numb, I’ve reached the bench and gladly drop my forest camo patterned burden. Looking down at the monstrosity, I can’t help but smile as I think to myself, “Yup. There I go. Moving mountains all over Iraq!” With that, I walk back across the fields of moon dust.

The cold air of the tent is almost painful as I peel off my jacket and unstuck my shirt from as much of my skin as possible. Just looking at the duffel bag is enough to get me sweating again, so I sit down on the end of my cot and take a break.

Five gloriously cold minutes later I put my still damp coat back on and load duffel bag hill onto my back. I find that I can stand pretty straight but still decide to keep it one bag at a time. I’ll be back. Opening the tent door was like being back on the sauté line with all eight flames blasting overtime. The dust is so light that it twirls and dances with the heat waves rising from the baked earth. It’s actually quite fun to watch; until, that is, the sweat starts stinging your eyes. It’s very common for these dances to become full tilt, spinning love affairs between earth and wind. Tornado like in appearance, these “dust devils” routinely pop up just to cover as much of the world (to include mouths, ears, food containers, etc) with dust and sand as possible. Anyway, I dropped the bag on the bench and set off through the fields for one more trip.

The heat has started to seep in through the cracks. Are the A/Cs even on?? My whole uniform is more than damp at this point. It’s not even 1030 and the outdoors has turned into a Viking range set to self clean. Just one more bag. I remember when I was at the NEX going back and forth trying to decide which bag to buy. The sixty-five dollar, half ruck sized super bag? Or the thirty-five dollar, half ruck sized generic bag? As I look now at the bulging pockets and seams stretched so tight that I can almost hear their agonized screams for mercy, I’m really glad I didn’t opt for the cheap one! And, as I secure those tough textured straps over my shoulders and grope about for my IBA and weapon, I’m really glad I decided to shove that pillow down the back of it!

Now all of my gear is staged and I’m pumped for the convoy. But…where’s the convoy? Oh, it’s not coming today? I see. Sunday instead? Okay…breathe…just breathe. I survey my mountain range. “Oh, Shit.”

Luckily, an easy solution presented itself. I went to chow and waited for the truck to become available. Hey, I’m no masochist (though everyone who knows I ran a marathon in Iraq may disagree). But I digress. Lunch consisted of another to-go box; this time filled with a corn dog, a grilled cheese sandwich, and a fish sandwich with cheese. Oh, and a couple of diet cokes and a slightly cool Gatorade. Trust me, it’s better than MREs!

The truck pulls up in a cloud of dust at noon. The mountains get loaded in the back and I climb into the mercifully air conditioned cab. I could fall asleep right here and now. But before my eyes even close, we are back at the tent and I’m reclaiming that squeaky cot. Surrounding it with my mountains to create a valley of slumberous peace. As I settle in, it gives an exceptionally loud groan as if to say, “Yeah, we’ll see about that, buddy.” I let out a sigh and reply, “Hey, I can dream, can’t I?” *CREAK* “Oh, yeah. I guess I can’t!”
The tent starts to get active so I abandon my hopes for a nap. It’s 1430 by my watch and the heat outside is physically beating on the walls of our vinyl fortress. So, naturally, I decide to go for a walk.

I’ve heard that the “hajji-mart” here is world class. Especially when it comes to movies that are still out in theaters! I’m told it’s housed in an old warehouse near the JNN site, so I brace myself for another journey through the fields and enter the wall of invisible flames. By the time I get there, I feel as if I’m melting from the inside out and my uniform seems to verify this at the moment. I enter the warehouse expecting a cornucopia of seemingly under priced shiny things, knock off electronics, and cases to the roof of things like faux-lex watches and nikee shoes. What I find instead is a dirty, hot, and, most importantly, empty warehouse, save for one kiosk of movies. Hopes and shoulders down, I mosey over to peruse the depressingly few titles when, lo and behold, the space beyond the kiosk comes into view. Racks of movies. Shelf after illegal fucking shelf of DVDs graced my eyes. Burning the image into my soul.

After an hour or so I had finally seen as much as I could take in for one trip. I made my way to the money man and placed my selections on the table. For Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix, Blades of Glory, Evan Almighty, and a seven in one of Jackie Chan movies, I paid ten dollars. That’s right friends! Ten bucks for the whole package! I just hope the quality justifies the price tag. We’ll see.

I get back to the tent and just kinda exist 1745 when hunger overpowers the urge to remain plopped on my conversational cot. I am determined to dine in the Dfac this time in the hopes of a more well rounded culinary experience. I opt for short order this time (one can only have so much corn and lima bean mix, after all), and as I’m in line to get a burger, the scent of fresh baked bread sends my olfactory glands into a frenzy. Just to my right is a friggin bakery! Shelves of real bread, a plethora of rolls, and even a nice selection of pastries has captured my full imagination. The smorgasbord spread before my mind’s eye is all consuming. I look down at my tray find, to my surprise, a cheeseburger. I must have just auto-piloted my way through the line. And now I stand before the gates to whole grain nirvana and all I can manage to say is, “O-Oat bread, p-please.” And then I have another shock as he takes the loaf of oaty goodness, hand slices a wonderfully thick slice and presents it as though it were Excalibur. With trembling hands I take possession of my carb loaded destiny. The whole ordeal proved too much for me. I could tell when, of all the things I could have done with it, I turned it into half of a tuna sandwich. *sigh*

And with that heavy memory I return to the tent. Here I sit. Existing. Waiting. Planning my doughy future.

It’s 23:58 and I’m feeling fresh and clean from another cool shower. If I can manage to stay awake, I’ll give Squirrely a call on her lunch break. I really miss her. I yearn for the smell of her hair and the warmth of her lips. It hurts just to think about. Then, all of a sudden it’s…

Changing the world. One day at a time. Day Zero.

Finally, one step closer to the war I signed up for. It's only taken a year in the background to get here. Though my list of accomplishments through that year is enough to make me proud, it doesn't feel as though I've really done much of anything. Over the coming months, however, I plan to change that.

Day Zero
26 July 2007

A mountain of rucksack rests beside me as I sit in room C-3, building 2606, for the last time. Walls bare, bed stripped, wall locker empty. All that remains as it was is my miniature library built up by book donations from the non-profit organization "Books For Soldiers". But before I can think of all the "Shoulda Coulda Woulda's", my ride arrives.
Off to the A/DAG we go and with plenty of time to spare, my hopes are high. The weather has been good all day, the dust is low, and it was a bit cooler than the rest of the week had been. So now all we do is wait.
My ride has other work to do so I am left, with my small mountain range of bags, to my own devices. And since I'm not really up for socializing at the moment, I think I'll just sit in the shade of my mountains like a crusty old hermit and wait for roll call.
But roll call never came. Ten minutes before flight time, though, a lot of things started happening very fast. A kid with a clip board came running out of the passenger terminal calling out our flight number, "Everyone on AL4 grab all your gear and gather up over here!" I surveyed my mountain range, "Oh, shit." One by one I took them over to the new spot for us AL4-ers and was even lucky enough to catch my name for roll call on my second trip. Panting, I arrive with the last bag just in time to hear, "Okay, I'll take ya'll over there. Let's go!" No time for surveying and swearing now!
I grab the first thing that I feel and throw it on my back. It's the duffel bag. Okay, IBA is on, Kevlar is close enough. Gotta hurry! Hoisting my overstuffed backpack onto my chest for a front load, I realize my weapon is still leaning against the Hesco barriers. No time to rearrange bags now; the others are already 100 meters ahead. Time to grab and go! M4 in my right hand, rucksack mountain in my left. Solid. Move!
After about five steps it becomes apparent that, although I am motivated through the roof, I am physically unable to…wait a minute! To hell with that! We got a war to win! And with that super hooah burst of motivation, I find myself about 50 meters from the bird, little white lights popping in front of my eyes, and clip board boy running over to help.
I must have looked like a lost child; standing there at the door of the Blackhawk. I put my duffel bag up first and just look at it as if waiting for it to tell me what to do next. I'm glad I put that orange tape on it. I like orange. Oh, yeah. Helicopter. In a hurry. Waiting on me. Got it. The duffel is lifted onto the knees of my much lighter packing companions and passed out of sight. Now it's rucksack mountain's turn, but that one isn't lifted or passed or even nudged, for that matter, so the backpack gets thrown on top and I climb into what's left of a seat. Clumsily I grope about for the seat belt and succeed in jamming the frame of the ruck into the knees of the captain sitting across from me. I would have cared more if any of the eleven other AL4-ers had even offered to help. Ah well. The doors close and off we go into the night.
The flight itself is un-eventful. A little bumpy and more than a little uncomfortable. It didn't last long, though, only taking about fifty minutes. As long as my team back at Spiecher made the call I should have a ride waiting for me at the Warhorse A/DAG. It's a comforting thought as I drag my mountains across another flight line panting and wheezing all the way. A quick PCI at the terminal reveals that I've lost my favorite hat (probably left during the rush to get on the bird) and the pen/laser/flashlight I got for re-enlistment (definitely lost here cause I used it to look for the duffel bag that was tossed away from the helipad). Ah well. Life goes on.
Two hours later I'm sitting on my duffel bag under the sign the reads, "Camp Warhorse Passenger Terminal". Soaked with sweat, sore as a bitch, and downright exhausted. I'm about to settle in for a little nap when a flashlight beam rips through the night, stinging my eyes. I never thought I'd be happy to see the little red headed S.O.B. that's on the other end of that beam. Oh my god. I think he's actually gotten whiter!
A trip to the Dfac yielded a to-go box of lasagna and a corn and lima bean mix (exactly like the dinner I'd had at Spiecher over six hours ago!), and a couple of diet cokes. The food here is pretty much the same quality as up north. Nothing really noteworthy.
The shower water actually gets cool here and that alone was enough to take all the bad from the day. The walk back to the tent is wonderful. The waxing moon lights up a spattering of clouds. The warm breeze left over from the intense heat of the day whispers, "I'll get you next time." The cot creaks and groans in welcome. And the rhythmic, steady beat of the helicopters sings me a lullaby.
Then, of course, I'm up every two hours until it's time to start…